What the f***is going on with me?

well today is the most depressing day of my life all thought i dint know why... i keep having all these thoughts and nothing makes sense i have no clue what is going on in this god giving world and surely nothing new will happen.. it feels like im tied up on a box and there are no wholes for me to breath.. like i am locked in this one way entry and there is no way out... although today it should be my one year anniversary with my boyfriend... i seem to not be happy... i dint know if i can take this anymore. Nothing is what i expected... So many things in my head. And not being able to fix them in a jiff kills me... My dad hit my mom and she called the cops so now if they find him he is going to jail. School!!!! god its not the same.... not what i used to know everything used to be so much easier... i had friends all over the place and they are all gone... off to college and me? here i cant even p the taks test and it frustrates me. everything else is ok but i think i should just give up.... i have so many feelings in me i don't know what i am feeling... can some one please tell me what the ****!!!! is wrong with me?